The sad realisation is that I have all of 3-4 weeks left of actual lectures. Then I have one exam and my university career is over. Fuck.
I don't have a plan. I never have a plan. At the moment I'm just going to be heading home come June 2nd and working at Asda. It goes without saying that I have no intentions of staying there for long, but that requires some sort of planning and foresight from me, skills I lack.
I want to do a lot of things, but I lack conviction. Tim and I have joked repeatedly that we're going to move to New York by 2014, then live there for an indeterminable amount of time. I can't help but fear this is just going to be a pipe dream. I would absolutely love to do it, I've only visited the city once but it enthrals me. However, I cannot see a way of it happening. I have no idea what sort of job I would apply for there or how hard it is to get visas etc. Overall, a pretty distant fantasy.
That's all I've got though. In the long term I would seriously consider going into teaching, as long as it was at a college or 6th form level. I need a gap though, something that will last at least 5 years, but no longer than 10. If I like the career I'm on I can stick to it. If not I can become a teacher. But what the hell do I do for those 5 years?
I've never learnt to be proactive and do things myself, I always wait for the push from whatever educational authority I'm currently within. However currently, all I get is the odd email which I never bother to read, they rarely seem to apply to me.
I've sort of decided to work at Asda for the summer at least, maybe even into the autumn. It's a guaranteed job and will get me some money; I'm still entertaining the idea of travelling after all.
Come 2014 I want to be on my way to something better. Scrap that. I NEED to be on my way, or the last 3 years have been a waste.
On a side note, read 'Apathy and other small victories' by Paul Neilan. It's a little quirky, but has some genuinely hilarious moments.
Link: http://goo.gl/eW965
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